Next week Thursday….that’s the big day! I can hardly believe the day is so near and I’m finding myself filled with hope, fear, angst, excitement and a whole lot more!  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.  There is so much build up leading to this day!!  So many perfectly scheduled appointments and procedures, doses of just the right medication on the right days at the right time.  All of this dedication to the goal and hope of getting pregnant comes down to one day, one last procedure and then the real waiting begins.

We have two embryos frozen in a tube somewhere.  God willing, they will both survive the thawing process and both will be placed in another tube.  I will lie on a cold table, in a sterile room, with a very full bladder. The doctor will insert the tube while my husband stands by my side and we watch on the screen as they are placed inside my womb {sounds romantic, right??}.  Instantly, I’ll be able to see my two babies-to-be {under crazy magnification that is!}!  Isn’t it incredible what modern medicine is able to do!!??

I have found myself pleading to God that this time it will work, that God will answer our prayers, dreams, and wishes and that at least 1 of these embryos will implant.  I don’t  want to continue to put my body through this process.  I’m sick of needles and patches and pills.  I’m tired of the high doses of hormones that cause me to feel bloated all the time and gain weight.  In this moment right now, I honestly don’t know if I can/want to do this again.  {I say this now, but my desire for a baby and another child is so great that who am I kidding??!  Of course I would do it again…I think!}

According to my ultrasound yesterday, things look great in there!  My body responds perfectly to the medication and on paper, there is no reason for this not to work!  But ultimately, the doctors and myself can only do so much.  I cannot control whether or not the embryos will implant.  All I can do is hope, think positively, be as stress free as possible, and PRAY!

I’m hoping you will pray with us!  There is power in prayer, so spread the word!!!

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7