June 27, 2017….sounds like a great day to have a baby, doesn’t it!??!!  That was my expected due date received at our appointment confirming the pregnancy on 10/20.  This date was also confirmed this week at our first ultrasound appointment!!! Based on my IVF transfer date of 10/8, I am now 6 weeks 3 days and at our appointment I was measuring just 1 day ahead of that.

We got to see our incredible miracle for the first time on Wednesday morning.  It was beautiful 🙂  He or she was completely unrecognizable as a baby at this point, but beautiful nonetheless!  And do you know what the most amazing thing was???  We could see our baby’s heartbeat!!! Yes, at 6 weeks 1 day, measuring just 5 mm, we could see the fluttering of their circulatory system!  We could see they have life and energy flowing through them! We could see the awesome wonder that they already are on the screen in front of us!  Breathtaking.

Lincoln came with to the appointment, excited to see his sibling.  We had hoped to actually hear the heartbeat, but I guess it’s too early for that.  We settled for seeing that amazing pulse and were able to measure the heart rate at 137!!!  Lincoln was even speechless for a moment when he saw the flickering.  He beamed with a proud smile for his strong brother or sister and quickly asked if it was a boy or girl.  He’s convinced of and expecting {not hoping, expecting} a sister.

We are over-the-moon happy, but I’m still nervous.  I find myself constantly thinking of the worst happening and loosing this baby.  It’s different than my pregnancy with Lincoln.  With him, I wasn’t distracted by constant fear of miscarrying, I was just too elated to be pregnant and felt like I had won the battle and nothing else could go wrong.  This time I’ve experienced the sting of things not going our way and know that things can go wrong.  I find myself just waiting for the devastating news the come at any time.  I’ve wanted to go and buy something new for baby, just to celebrate this little one, but have been too fearful of how bad it will feel to have to return it if/when something bad happens.

I keep reminding myself that God is in control of this pregnancy {and the election on Tuesday, I also keep reminding myself of that!!!!} and that fearing the worst, does not change anything.  I can and should be excited about this baby because thus far, they are growing, developing, and they have a tiny little heart already beating away 🙂

I’m just starting to feel a little “different”.  I’m dragging without my regular Dt. Coke each morning and I just want to crawl in bed at the end of the day {who am I kidding, in the middle of the day!}.  I’m not having aversions to anything yet, but getting that icky feeling in my stomach.  I get super hungry, but then have a loss of appetite when it comes to actually eating.  Oh, and the “pregnancy brain” has started early with this one!  I’m not sure I’ll know who I am by my 3rd trimester if it keeps up at this rate!

We follow back up with the RE doctor and clinic at 9 weeks for another ultrasound and to confirm all is going as planned.  After that, we graduate to the regular OB and will have a more normal follow up schedule.  The one advantage of being considered “high-risk” is the extra, necessary {so insurance pays for it!} ultrasounds.  I just love seeing baby and the heartbeat any chance I get!

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!!